Keeping a secret is not my forte. Ask any of my friends. You shouldn’t tell me anything. Ever. So this has been a big deal for me, to keep this baby news under wraps. Especially as the typical over-sharer blogger. I am constantly balancing the line between what I share in my digital world to what is in my real-life everyday world. There’s a whole lot of overlap.
Here is what’s been going down in secret pregnant-lady town, one of the biggest and hardest secrets I’ve ever kept…
:: Although I wanted to reach for my fifteenth helping at the Thai banquet that night, I refrained. “Why you eat so much, Emma?!” I usually eat like a bird. Now I’m pregnant I eat like a horse (well sort of, just more frequently, smaller meals). It wouldn’t take a rocket scientist to put two and two together.
:: Not raising my voice three octaves when sitting next to my sister, literally 36 hours after seeing those two lines on the pregnancy test, she turns to me and snorts “God, you aren’t pregnant are you – ha!” Awkward.
:: When another blogger puts on Facebook about her drunk husband eating microwaved cashews covered in cheese, I refrained from typing “Sounds delicious!” and actually meaning it. Dead giveaway.
:: Shoveling a face full of food into me just before the bride was set to leave for the church at a wedding I was shooting. The bride’s dad offered, I was so flipping hungry, and knew if I didn’t eat soon things were going south fast. Real professional.
:: My friend Ange sending me messages saying she dreamed vividly of me being pregnant last night. Me replying noncommittally and all casual like.
:: Posting a photo to Instagram with a very obvious ‘What To Expect When You’re Expecting’ book in the background on the coffee table. Promptly deleting.
:: Literally being face down on the floor with morning sickness only to have the phone ring, my mum asking casually how I’m doing. Great, just great.
:: Creating a secret Pinterest board for baby things, but also still pinning to my Baby Boy and Baby Girl boards as I’ve had them going for years. It’s hard work equally spreading the pinning love.
I am still undecided as to whether I will do a weekly ‘bump’ photo and post on She Sows Seeds. One post a week seems an awful lot? I might just keep taking the photos and do a post every few weeks with a couple of images. I have also been taking photos with whichever fruit the baby is the size of that week – starting with ‘Blueberry’, which is now what we call the baby!