Somehow, this has happened: I am 30 weeks pregnant…
Everyone will tell you about the difference in first to second (and subsequent) pregnancies – how it all goes so much faster, how you don’t notice every little detail like you did your first, how it physically feels different, those kicks and rolls, the muscle memory you have from your first pregnancy is really quite amazing! It’s all true, I’ve hardly documented this pregnancy compared to Eleanor’s, and not only because the time seems to be moving faster, but I was also feeling entirely different for the first 20 weeks of this pregnancy compared to first time around.
I still love being pregnant, I’m still in that camp, but the nausea this time around was something else! Especially since with Eleanor’s pregnancy I was only mildly nauseous in the first 12 weeks (to be expected) then it quickly passed and the 2nd trimester energy kicked in. For the rest of my first pregnancy I hardly knew I was pregnant, other than the obvious karate kid taking up residency, I didn’t get ‘over it’ by the end and was fully prepared to go well overdue (which I didn’t). For this pregnancy though the 1st trimester came and went…the nausea lingered, if not worsened. Energy levels have been low, I expected this with a toddler to entertain, but I still think much lower than when I was pregnant two years ago with no toddler to chase! Eleanor is a fairly sedate toddler too so I can hardly blame the exhaustion on her, this time around it’s just all a bit different. Which is good – different pregnancy, different baby.
Now at 30 weeks, I’m glad to report the nausea train has departed (although sometimes will re-appear unexpectedly and is most unwelcome!) I have started enjoying being pregnant again, my growing bump has become quite the belly, again different to Eleanor’s pregnancy where I showed very early and looked very pregnant from quite early on. This time around I have a low count of a pregnancy protein, which can indicate that this baby will be a little on the small side…or might not be at all! It did explain why I seemed so much smaller than at the same stage with Eleanor, something I was a little worried about seeing as though every other second time mama around me seemed to be bigger and showing earlier in their second pregnancies. In the past few weeks though I’ve felt I’ve grown exponentially! Properly on my way to how I was at the same stage with Eleanor, if not about the same. This bambino seems very active as well, I’m sure Eleanor was as well but I’ve just forgotten, but my goodness the jabby movements and jutting angles! Especially at about 9-10pm it seems, I do remember that was the same with Eleanor. As well as more tired this time around, my body seems sorer and a bit more weary than at the same stage in my first pregnancy. I’m fairly certain this has a lot to do with all the bending over and picking up toys a lot, not to mention the increased washing basket lugging and heaving an almost 16kg toddler in and out of a high car!
Unlike with Eleanor’s pregnancy, I haven’t even thought too much about actually having a newborn baby soon! Minor detail really. Only in the past few weeks, I think as I’ve gotten bigger, more obviously pregnant and started talking to Eleanor about ‘the baby’, have I started to wrap my head around it all. Huh… By this time in my pregnancy with Eleanor I think I had newborn nappies purchased, the nursery well and truly on it’s way to being decked out, names chosen and birth plan thought out! Not so much this time around, we do still have (hopefully) another 10 weeks, which seems like awhile yet, but a blink of an eye all at the same time… In those weeks I’m hoping to document my pregnancy a bit more as I’m feeling well, get all the little tiny baby things a bit more organised, pack a hospital bag and think about all that is birth again, and of course cherish the little time with just Eleanor and I at home before there’s a new addition to our cosy little farmhouse this Winter.